I've Got This Life

Women's health issues ahead. About 8 weeks ago I woke up bleeding excessively, feeling faint, in tremendous amounts of pain, and I shouldn't have been. Two days before that morning I'd had an elective procedure to treat menstrual symptoms that were untreatable by other means. The procedure had failed. Roughly 20 years ago I started my monthly cycle. From the the very beginning I had a tremendous amount of pain, heavy bleeding, and other pain-related symptoms. As a teenager my doctors blamed my symptoms on "being a teenager". In other words, my terrible periods could be explained by my age and they didn't ever look any deeper. As I moved into college the symptoms only increased. There were a few times in my college days when my I was put onto birth control pills to "control" my symptoms. Usually, these only helped to regulate my cycle. Meaning that my periods, which were still heavy and painful and long, would at least happen on a nea...

Can you hear me?  You say you want me to share and say what's on my mind. You say that I'm important and that I matter. You can say that I'm not to difficult, too much, too demanding. But can you hear me? I say I need help or just a little time. I say that I need to be shown and not just told that I'm heard. I'm trying so hard to be open and honest. I know you don't always see that, but I'm trying so hard. I never want to hold you back or keep you from what you really want to do. So please stop telling me that you want to hear, listen, do. Because when you change the rules and leave without warning or without following through it hurts too much. I don't want to be too much, too demanding, or too difficult. Maybe I should stop talking now.

Hello all! It has been a LONG minute since I posted anything. This past year has been one of tremendous change, growth, and learning. Professionally, I completed my first year as a third grade teacher and I loved every kid-filled minute of it. I really did (turns out a list of boundaries that I know and understand make kids enjoyable). All 28 of my students were such wonders and it was so neat to see them learn, grow, and explore this past year.  This past June I had to complete a couple of weeks of training for my licensure. It was a really fun and I enjoyed the classes very much. I'm looking forward to this next year and the opportunity to grow some more and get to know another 30 or so students. I've got to get into the school and start working on my new classroom here in the next few weeks. My divorce was finalized on June 21st. This was a decision that took me a lot of time to figure out but I'm feeling positive about the change. I've been working on what ...